Archive for January, 2010

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

January 28, 2010

I napped until 3:30 this afternoon…  oops.  The not-chemo is just really taking it out of me after the radiation.

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Go me!

January 26, 2010

I’m finally back to making progress on my thesis.  This week I made the PowerPoint presentation for my defense, and now all I have to do is double-check all the page numbers in my citations and write a one-page conclusion.  Not bad for someone who’s stuck at home with cancer…

Red

January 25, 2010

Little devils at the candy shop:

My Torah:

The side of a bus:

An owl at the drycleaners’:

A Chinese lantern:

Enjoy! 🙂

Being bald…

January 24, 2010

…really isn’t so bad at all, believe it or not.  I look cute in my hats (I never looked good in hats before) and there’s no washing/brushing/drying of hair.  And no hair all over the floor.  Shower time is so much simpler — just use a pea-sized amount of shampoo two or three times a week.  The only downside is that it’s cold outside… how do balding men do it?!

Yellow

January 23, 2010

Yellow is a good color to mellow out to.  Here are some yellow pictures.

A car:

The crosswalk:

The construction site downtown:

Enjoy and chill, y’all. 🙂

So, how are you holding up mentally?

January 23, 2010

That’s what my stepmom asked me today.  And the truth is: I’m frustrated.  The doctors and I decided that I’m still too fatigued to be able to go back to work right now, even though I only work 4 hours a day.  My new apartment, as great as it is, is too far from the synagogue for me to be able to get there easily for services and choir rehearsal.  It’s pretty far from school, too, so I’m not sure whether I’ll be able to go back when the semester starts up next month.  Plus it’s cold, and I don’t do cold well (despite four years of -40° weather at Middlebury!)

Add to that the fact that it’s hard to make brain tumors and lung tumors go into remission at the same time (the whole blood-brain barrier thing), and this is going to be one long, hard road ahead.  I was pretty much okay with that up until the point of my second surgery, because I still had some semblance of control over my life.  Well, that vanishes pretty quickly when you wake up in the hospital two days after your scheduled doctor’s appointment with part of your skull missing and no idea of what happened to you.  That’s when I started to cry.  I hadn’t cried at all before then.

Stage 4 cancer sucks, y’all.

Green

January 21, 2010

Okay, I know I posted awhile ago about the Color Project, where you take a series of pictures featuring a specific color and make them into a collage.  Well, I was about halfway towards having the pictures I needed when I wound up in a coma having emergency surgery, and I just haven’t had the energy to go out and take pictures since then.  I do feel in a green mood today, though, so I’ll share some of the green pictures I managed to get.  I’m pretty proud of them, given how broken my poor camera is.

An advertisement for some sort of expo:

A Perrier advertisement on an awning:

A bicycle outside my dorm:

A walk sign (duh):

A green party poster:

Sunshine at last

January 19, 2010

Finally the weather has cleared up and I can go outside without freezing my behind off!  I took my stepmom down to the UN yesterday so she could take some pictures, but of course I forgot my own camera.  Oh well.  I have plenty of UN pictures already, but it would have been nice to get some of the right-hand side of the mural out front.  I didn’t realize that I didn’t have any photos of it.

Today I’m a bit wiped out because of the walk back yesterday — uphill all the way, for 15 minutes.  Totally doable when I’m not on chemo.  Not so much at the moment, though.  We had to stop and rest four times.  All I managed to do this afternoon was go to one of the two grocery stores we needed to visit to get ingredients for tomorrow night’s dinner.  Hopefully I’ll have more energy tomorrow…

Score!

January 15, 2010

I just got back from an impromptu shopping trip with my stepmom — found four sweaters and three tops for a total of 100 francs.  Doesn’t get much better than that! 🙂

Y’all wish me luck

January 12, 2010

I have a doctor’s appointment this afternoon — hoping to be cleared to go back to work this week.  I’m finally starting to have enough energy to sit up and be active for more than an hour at a time.  Six weeks of “vacation” is more than enough for me!